Life has been an amazing journey of sorts. For the last few weeks I have been on an amazingly positive adventure. Yes, there have been some dark moments- but such is life.
I have never been so sure about my direction in life and how I foresee my compass points. I make few huge plans in life, because I know everything can change. But I feel very thankful for what I have and how I'm growing as a person. I only hope to bring more on my journey with me.
Since starting my internship I have noticed a change in my behavior and my thinking. I thoroughly enjoy teaching, even the "problem" students aren't so bad. I keep thinking of how I can reach them.
My supervising teacher is amazing, he is a great example of how to behave in the classroom and his courtesy at all times inspires me. I am trying to be more polite in life and make sure I am doing the right thing because I want to be an example to my students. I noticed I curse less, pick up more trash, and try in general to be more conscientious. Main word- try. I am still but a fallible mortal, but I feel more useful in this life.
I love Irma now in a more mature way. I think beyond myself more often and try to find ways to help her. I want to be the hero that she's been dreaming of, because I feel as though God and fate have brought us together for a reason. We were meant to soothe each other after long days, laugh through our tears, terrors, and days together. I wish I could wipe away past ugliness in her life so that it was not hurting her still. Since I have yet to figure out a way to do this, I must pray and find direction in how to be the best support for her.
This is another dimension in my life that is growing. My desire to return to some type of faith. I am thinking of going to the progressive service on Sundays at the Estero Methodist Church to see what it's like. I don't know what I'll find but maybe it will help me on this journey. I'm listening to this song that has been inspiring me lately.
"Woke up this morning
And I just had to thank God for my life
Just read through James' book
Start to pray and ask God for a wife
It's a time of devotion
As I sit and speak to my God unseen
Why should He listen? Well I love Him and He's in love with me
Why me God? Why should You choose me?
On your team God, can You use even me?
I think a few years back
On a road that headed to nowhere
Now that You found me I can see that You were always there
So great a salvation. But to You my Jesus what am I worth?
It's quiet times like this I feel I get a glimpse of Heaven right here on earth.
Oh, hold me in your arms of love
Sometimes I swear I feel your heartbeat.
I could never ever thank You enough.
But here's my life for whatever it's worth"
So Great A Salvation by the Supertones
